I'm having a tough time being myself since I moved to Tulsa. Not around my family or the people who moved with me, but around the people I meet here. I'm so focused, fixated might be the word, on not coming off "churchy" or "religious" that I feel like I'm masking my love for Jesus and how excited I am to be a follower of His.
I feel like one of my strengths as a leader is my ability to be real and transparent. I am having trouble with that and I need God's help to just settle down and be myself. It's wearing me out all the time wondering how I'll come off to someone I meet. I am who I am. I guess that's a little bit churchy, but mostly just a real guy.
I must admit, I didn't see this one coming. I'm feeling pretty confused and worn out right now. Thank God for Sabbath days. I have one starting in just a couple hours!
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I've been struggling, too. It feels like I have a quota to meet or something! It sounds ridiculous, but it's pretty monumental in my mind sometimes. When I get that way, I try to remind myself that I am not selling anything. The Holy Spirit is doing the drawing long before I meet that person...that usually helps me focus on just creating a new relationship. I believe in what you are doing, Jay! You are the right man for the job!
It can be hard. We forget just to let Jesus shine through us. I remember when I was a teen, a boy I just met asked me why I was always smiling. Jesus was just shining through & my smile just opened up the door to share Christ's love. Jesus will shine through you, Jason...like never before. - Alicia Roth
thanks Jeremiah and Alicia. I'm getting to a better place . . . slowly but surely :)
Dude, I'm so glad you're my leader!
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