I'm having a tough time being myself since I moved to Tulsa. Not around my family or the people who moved with me, but around the people I meet here. I'm so focused, fixated might be the word, on not coming off "churchy" or "religious" that I feel like I'm masking my love for Jesus and how excited I am to be a follower of His.
I feel like one of my strengths as a leader is my ability to be real and transparent. I am having trouble with that and I need God's help to just settle down and be myself. It's wearing me out all the time wondering how I'll come off to someone I meet. I am who I am. I guess that's a little bit churchy, but mostly just a real guy.
I must admit, I didn't see this one coming. I'm feeling pretty confused and worn out right now. Thank God for Sabbath days. I have one starting in just a couple hours!