I'm so inspired by Johannes Amritzer when I'm with him. I want to be like this man. That sounds kind of silly, but what gives me hope is that I know that God wants me to be like him too! This guy operates at a higher level; much closer to Jesus than I do. Closer than anyone I know in the states!
What's my problem? Maybe I'm lazy. Maybe I'm selfish. Probably both true, but God is showing me something lately about myself. I have a deep need to be viewed as cool. I'm proud to be a Christian, but I like to be a cool Christian.
Well, God is showing me that cool and walking close with Jesus may not always be in tune. After all, "cool" is defined by a secular culture. Even this week, I feel excited about what God is doing and as I send updates via twitter, I have the thought, "does this sound silly or crazy?" "will people think I'm a crazy christian?"
I'm caring less and less about this kind of stuff. Please pray for me so I will not care at all.