Friday, June 19, 2009

why do I want to be so cool?

I'm so inspired by Johannes Amritzer when I'm with him. I want to be like this man. That sounds kind of silly, but what gives me hope is that I know that God wants me to be like him too! This guy operates at a higher level; much closer to Jesus than I do. Closer than anyone I know in the states!

What's my problem? Maybe I'm lazy. Maybe I'm selfish. Probably both true, but God is showing me something lately about myself. I have a deep need to be viewed as cool. I'm proud to be a Christian, but I like to be a cool Christian.

Well, God is showing me that cool and walking close with Jesus may not always be in tune. After all, "cool" is defined by a secular culture. Even this week, I feel excited about what God is doing and as I send updates via twitter, I have the thought, "does this sound silly or crazy?" "will people think I'm a crazy christian?"

I'm caring less and less about this kind of stuff. Please pray for me so I will not care at all.


heartlink said...

you dont sound crazy at all jason, i read the book by smith wigglesworth and that excites me and makes me want to live like that. I believe the potential is there for us, i dont know about you but i hang on to things i just might not want to hand over to God, yes I'm willing to give up that which is easy but it is the little things. keep on pressing jason, we look up to you as leadership and I konw that your church will do great things. I really believe that you are going to step out into some supernatural things when you get to ohio. I just have that feeling inside. I see and excitement in you and sara, and jacob and shawna, and i am just going to sit back and see what God does.

Jacob Lewis said...

I'm with you on that, Jason. God has been teaching me a lot, it kind of hurts a bit, but it is so good.